hi im 19 years old and like the cuckold fantasy i found out i liked it by watching porn and stuff and eventually told my gf at one time we was going to go ahead with it in reality but as a man I decided to not let it happen since then its just been a fantasy. As a man I've always been the leader of my peer group, people have respect for me and some people even look up to me although in the bedroom I'm so submissive, I have a dick of around 7 - 8 inches I'm white but every time i have sex apart from being with my gf for a while and ex gf for a while I've always been really nervous and could never get it up and when its been with girls on one night stands its been embarrassing and if not humiliating and has really messed with my mind. I have a foot fetish and other humiliating fetishes. one girl in school who i was with made me confess about my fetish then when i went to hers she made me suck her toes I always felt I should of been having sex with her that day and not sucking her toes. my ex made me suck her toes have foot jobs, wear her underwear (once) and lick her asshole. my ex had always been with black men and I was the first white man and she also slept with about 10 men but I'm not sure if she cheated on me while we was together coz she got tested for an std and she had one and i got tested but was fine. My gf now has made me drink her urine, wear her underwear, spat on me, made me put my legs over my head and cum on my own face, watch her on cam to random guys, suck her toes, lick her ass, spank me, made me do the housework in her sexy lingerie which she actually bought for herself to wear for me, she knows I like the idea of being a cuckold, eating cum and sucking dick for her (even though I'm not bi), knows I like humiliation swell and wants to get a strap on one day. Im also quite good in bed so she is satisfied This all sounds crazy because as a person im not weak, I don't have a small penis and I'm not pathetic. But my gf said to me yesterday, once we get a place of our own she is definitely going to cuckold me whether I like it or not and she also has a thing for black men. She said to me that she wants to experience other dicks as she has only slept with 2 people. Im scared that if this happens I will have no self esteem, self respect or anything for myself. I have been insecure and jealous of black men since my ex. I always am the weaker one in the relationship and she is more in charge although she isn't completely. I will stand up to her and not let her do this but in the end I don't know if i'll give in as I'm weak sexually and the cuckold fantasy is in my head a lot. But if i do give in it will ruin my man hood and I will become nothing but A weak pathetic loser who can never become a man again. Once another man plants his cock inside your gf/wife you will never ever be a man again and I just can't let it happen. Bulls, cucks and mistresses please give me some advice I'd like to know everyones opinions please?.